...hate blog post...

...blow me.

You know, I've had it with people who you tried to be nice with all your life.

Hey, guess what? Go fuck yourself coz I am not even bothered.

Try be nice to you and you are now not even picking up my phone calls. So much for me trying to cover your ass when you fucked up my orders.

Try to be civilised with my "Dear.. tqvm" emails to get the order update but hey, it's more on my side doing the dirty job of telling the customers "Hey, your orders will be done late because this stupid moron did not even bother to follow up on my case?"

Try to warm it up to the bosses just to get another phonecall in the morning "Hey, where's the update that I need?" I am on paid leave, you motherfucker. And d'ohh, your manager and YOURSELF has the copy of the email sent by the customer on the UPDATE that you need.

Try to tell you that hey, the schedule is full for the installation of service and hey, can we just stick to the schedule that we have informed you. But no, you insisted that another DAY spells the doomsday of your business. I don't give one shit about your business mister. I have done my best to push the delivery date, but hell, I can't force people to change their schedule just because of you!

Try to tell you that when the fault is with the MAIN cable / fiber core servicing the AREA, I can't really push for your individual telephone lines to be up, because your fucking outlet has started operation. The main fiber core to the area do not have YOUR OUTLET name on it but everyone's name too! So can't you just WAIT?

So you see.. with all these happenings WHEN I AM ON FUCKING PAID LEAVE, please don't expect me to be civilised. And you, HUSBAND, I don't want McD for lunch! I want to have a proper meal, or don't even bother coming home for lunch when you are damn pressed for deadline. I don't give a shit. Next time, just send me off to any shopping malls and leave me there.

Fuck you.

...a day in the life of a crazy woman...

...pagi yang malas.



Bangun dari tidur. Menggeliat. Tengok jam hp. 7.08 pagi. Amir masih tidur. Lightly snoring. Warm. Nice. Cannot bring self to leave bed. He's..so..warm..



Best snuggle dengan laki pagi2 ni. Tak caya, kawin la. Baru tau. Hahahahaha...

Sampai opis, beli nasik lemak bungkus. Wash off with teh tarik. Kenyang.

Unplug telephone jack kat meja aku supaya tak berbunyik. Customer yang tau aku nye hp number boleh call mobile aku. Senyap dan aman. Fuhhh...

Check emails. Banyak. Ada yang menarik (Cuti @PD), ada yang menyakitkan hati (Outstanding LCB and COINS). Hadap aje la.

Lunch. Makan nasik lauk belitung masak lemak tapi tak pedas. Tak syiok. Telan aje la.

Lepas lunch, sambung tengok email. Hm. Memaki hamun mana yang patut. Submit program agenda pada Project Manager.

Hantar email pada CSM. Call nak follow up tapi tak berjawab. Bangkai betul. Kok ye pun nak pulau kan aku, be professional la. Jawab la email aku. Kalau aku boleh tahan baca email "Kambing Hitam" kau, email "Buang Masa RNO" kau, takkan takleh nak baca email aku yang start dengan "Assalamualaikum dan Salam Sejahtera" dan diakhiri dengan "TQVM". Babi betul.

Customer SMS. Dia maki aku sebab aku tak jawab SMS dia. Aku maki balik. End of story.

Hishh bila la nak balik ni.

Esok buat lagi...

...cut so deep, it hurts your soul...

...pagi yang gelap, kini sudah terang...

Aku sampai opis lambat. Tetiba bos aku sms "Aumi, where are you? Kristal dah nak start."

Like...huh? Tak pernah2 sms ni. Urgent ke?

Then I got to know, aku kena share success story untuk sesi Pep Talk KRISTAL.

Demm.. Satu hapah pun tak ready ni. Aku nak goreng pasal ape...

The thing is, aku sendiri tak pasti kalau aku ade success story. Steady Aumi.. steady...

Tarik nafas dalam-dalam. "Good morning.. hm.. success stories.. where do I start?"

Tahun lepas.. ada sekali tu bos aku suruh aku present. Tajuk ape-ape la. Ikut suka. Aku seperti biasalah kan, tak pernah ambil serius pun. Tapi bila sampai hari kena present tu, aku sejuk kepala. Member lain siap prepare slide! Aku? Haram...

So aku fikir.. ape ni.. ape ni.. blank ni... then aku dapat idea. Blank. Yes, blank is good. Great!

Aku ke depan, aku pasang Power Point. Tapi Power Point kosong. Blank. And korang tau tajuk apa aku present? DREAM. Something yang aku conjure kan tak sampai 5 minit.

Aku cerita pasal angan-angan. Impian. Impian yang asalnya kosong macam Power Point kat depan ni. Cerita macam mana nak 'mewarnakan' impian. Dan 5 minit berikutnya, tepukan gemuruh. Komen GM aku? Aku came prepared. Heh. Kalau la dia tau aku sebenarnya tak bersedia langsung untuk speech tu. Siap ada yang kata aku ni inspiring. Hahahahahahahaha... gile pandai kenching aku ni kan?

Berbalik kepada masa sekarang...

5 minutes.. done. Simple. Siap ada kata-kata semangat lagi. (Punya la living in denial. Sebab aku sendiri pun rasa aku tak termotivate dengan kata-kata aku..but anyhow..)

"Yes, we may face some issues with our work, but after all that, once we get it, what we want.. we'll say, it's worth it..." What the hell was that? Euwww...

Then aku tanya dengan member aku, how was I? She said..."well, aku cakap dengan akak seblah aku, Aumi dalam tak prepare pun boleh bercakap macam tu..."

Skill? Maybe. Skill mengenching..

Ciao~!