...booty-zilla...

*nak dekat tengahari*

Aku sembang dengan member aku hari ni. Perbualan berkisar tentang 'body issues'. Hm, topic yang biasa kita dengar.

Aku antara yang dulunye (mark my word, 'dulunye') tak perlu gusar tentang berat badan. Wah gitu! Makan ape pun aku masih nampak skinny. Skinny chic. Twiggy? That's me baby...

Tapi.. tapi... itu semua sudah berubah...

Satu hari aku perasan seluar aku semua dah tak muat. Kalau muat pun, sendat. Dah la sendat, aku nak berjalan pun penat. Penat? Penat tau...

Semakin kita mengalami proses kematangan, body kita dah tak membakar lemak macam masa kita kat university dulu. Wahh... dulu aku pergi kelas, jalan kaki! Jauh tau. Itu baru jalan kaki pergi kelas, pi Pasar Malam Taman Kerjasama? Ingat dekat ek dari Taman Bukit Beruang Utama tu? Berpeluh ketiak tau! Seb baik masa tu dah ade boyfriend, tak kisah la kan awek yang jalan seblah dia tu berpeluh. Heh. Sayang punye pasal. And kalau ingat balik, aku selalu jugak jalan kaki gi rumah boyfriend (hantar barang tau, bukan pi lepak umah dia), main basketball. Jogging. Mendaki bukit belakang tu (walaupun sampai atas muka aku dah biru).

Active! Memang la keping.

Tapi bila dah kerja, paling paling exercise aku ialah jalan kaki pi jalan tengah kat belakang office aku utk tapau nasik hari jumaat. Or skang jauh sikit la, jalan kaki pi LRT. Waktu balik SAHAJA. Plus, aku dah kurang bersenam. Dulu masa kawan aku ramai bujang, ade jugak la nak main futsal sebulan sekali. Skang, semua yang bujang, dah kawin, plus dah membawak budak. Mana la nak main futsal lagi...

Kalau ada orang yang nampak aku sekarang, they always say that aku tak banyak berubah pun. Masih keping cam dulu. Tapi, underneath this baju, aku (dan Tuhan..) yang tahu.

Bila body dah tak rasa.. cam dulu, it really affects your confidence. Sekarang, nak gayakan seluar pun aku fikir 5-6 kali. Suit aku seluar dah kena pakai M (dulu S ok?). Bila nak pergi kerja, aku pening nak fikir baju apa yang boleh menyorokkan lower portion body aku yang semakin tak sekata ni. Bukan setakat baju, tang muka pun aku dah naik sebu menengoknye. Makin gebu! Tak nampak dah jaw line. Yang aku nampak? Bumper, tang dagu. Double you...

This is depressing. Hmm.. nak makan eskrem coklat lah. ;-P

..sambungan kerja tangan.. :P

Banyak tak?

Ini satu lagi version... yang clear plastic.. chomel tak?

Hari ni aku duduk rumah. Duduk dengan mak. Best duduk dengan mak.. :-)

So semalaman aku mengandam hadiah utk party akak aku ni. Sampai jam 2 pagi. Mak aku dari bersembang, tau tau dah tidur.. punya la nak temankan aku buat sampai siap.. Boleh bukak bisnes ni.

Pada siapa-siapa yang rasa cam nak test kerja tangan aku, boleh la contact.. aku bagi POC free. Tapi bahan kena la bagi. :P

Ciao~!

*pagi*

Mak bancuhkan nescafe panas. Semakin berat kaki ni nak pergi kerja. Setiap kali mak datang rumah aku mesti malas nak pergi office. Masih rasa nak tidur dengan mak. Tapi mak faham, anak dia yang sorang ni kaki kerja. Dia datang pun aku tak ambik cuti.

Tapi pagi tadi aku terasa jugak la bila mak aku cakap gini "Mak pi rumah Kak Uda pagi ni, sebab rumah ni tak ada orang." Adus.. Tapi lepas tu mak sambung.."Nanti malam mak datang lagi, mak tidur rumah kamu." Yeay yeay...

Apapun aku akan EL esok. Nasib la.

Ini mak aku masih muda, masih gagah nak ke sana ke mari. Satu hari nanti mak aku mesti akan tua. Dan semestinya sebagai anak aku akan ambik giliran utk jaga dia. So, masa tu adakah aku akan macam ni, pergi ofis pagi dan tinggalkan mak aku sendirian kat rumah? Lu fikirlah sendiri, bak kata Nabil.

Tapi dalam keadaan ekonomi yang kian gawat (si bodo mana yang naikkan harga minyak semalam?) aku tak pasti sama ada aku mampu untuk menguruskan orang tua aku. Serius. Aku sudah pasti perlu bekerja (masa tu adakah aku masih digajikan? Dibuatnya kena CSS?). Zaman sekarang tak sama macam zaman dulu kala. 5 tahun dulu bila aku baru mula kerja, aku menyimpan azam, satu hari nanti aku mampu bersara awal, dan boleh jaga mak aku bila mak aku dah tua.

Tapi sekarang aku rasa susahnya nak berhenti. Economy-wise, it looks gloomy and depressing. Dengan gaji aku hubby and wifey ni memang susah rasanya nak fikirkan begitu.

Aku kini perlu fikirkan macam mana nak kurengkan perbelanjaan bulanan:

1) No more fancy restaurant. Aku kena limitkan cuma sebulan sekali makan kat tempat yang agak pergh harganya (dulu ikut suka..).

2) Naik LRT (walaupun aku rasa by the time aku sampai opis aku dah rupa macam harimau belang, aku akan gagahkan jugak).

3) Okey, that Newsweek and TIME magazine? Walaupun ada tax deduction, takleh nak beli every week seperti yang aku buat sekarang. So baca online aje la.

4) Lupakan handbag baru berjenama.. oh Braun Buffel ku.. tak dapek la nak beli yang itu...

5) Baju baru? Tiada lagi sebulan sekali. Isk isk..

6) Lebih rajin buat claim T&T. :)

...aku rasa aku boleh! Ye boleh!

*Office*

Okey, as promised, I'll show you the end product of my labour last nite. My husband remarked that I hated the gifts so much, I actually had written about it 5 times in my previous blogs. Yep. Finally, something constructive done!

The hated item...

Some sweet stuff, you can get this for RM5.79 at local Tesco Stores for 70 pcs...


Wrapping papers.. shiny ones...

Tadaa.. but I havent got the time to buy the ribbon for this, so use this one first..

Finally! All 6 of them...

So, be creative! :-)

I have another 8 sets to work with.. my target date? The end of the week.. then off these go to my sister's party next week.. yiehakkk...

...what you give.. you get back.. then you regift..

*blur...*

Slept late last night. Woke up to my mobile phone alarm, just to switch it off and slipped back under the thick, cosy comforter. Eh wait, haven't pray yet. Better pray first, then can go back to sleep. ZzzzZzZzzz..

Anyway, the reason for the candle-burning night is not as kinky as I hope it should be. Sorry to disappoint (you pervvv...). Last night, it was Audit Night. One more time!

You remember I wrote about not being an organized freak. Yep, in that sense, when it comes to work. But looking into my closet, and you will see a compulsive, obsessive freak written all over it. Even worse. My garments are arranged into types of garment; blouse to the left, baju kurung on the right. By color. Different hanger for different outfit; red for baju kurung, black for my cocktail tops and shirts, white for my casual tops.

Last night it was my kitchen cabinet's turn. You see, I have been keeping all my wedding gifts, thinking that one day, ONE day, I will be able to use them for dinner parties, or Hari Raya.. etc. Hey. That, my friends, is a BIG mistake. You will never use your wedding gifts. Because, let's be honest, those people who actually purchase it for you don't even intend to get it for themselves. Like, hell, I am not going to use this, but it's a great gift because:

1) It's practical.. (the newly-weds sure needs all these tumblers, corningware-wannabees stuff. A lot of it!)
2) It comes in a big box (hey, if I come with this big box of mug and hangers sets, they sure love it! The bigger the better!)
3) Well.. for whatever reason, I think they might need this hideous set of tea set.

I mean, yeah, the intention behind the gifts is good. But the gifts suck. Big time.

So what did I do with the gift? What else? I re-gift! But not the whole stack.. I'm not that 'keji'... Unpack it individually. Put some candies in. Wrap in wrapping plastic, put ribbon on top. Taadaaaaa!! Perfect for any parties, as doorgift, as parting gifts. I'll show you the end result tomorrow. ;-)

Now that I have more space in my kitchen cabinet, I can definitely buy that original corningware set... *wink wink*

...momma.. I lap you...

*morning*

Ola!

Today is going to be a great day...NOT!

*Groan*. I had to literally drag myself from the bed this morning. Last night was entertaining night. In-laws came for a surprise visit. 'Surprise! We brought something for you guys!' Smile... smile.. Not that I have something against visiting in-laws (as surprising as it always be), but sometimes how I wish I can spend my weekend afternoon and night alone, after all the house chores are done, watching TV.. *sigh*.. hey, at least my husband has to bear the same if MY parents come to visit...which is pretty soon.. he he...

Now, we always have this one stereotype against our in-laws. Mother-in-laws to be exact. Some people think that mom-in-laws can be quite... condescending, and experience varies from one in-law to another. Yeah I know. But surprisingly, my mom-in-law is not quite what I have expected before I got married. Well, I expect her to be... like my mom. My mom IS the typical mom-in-law. Ask any one of my bro-in-laws, even if they do not want to admit it to me, I know secretly that they harbour that same feelings.. heh.

My mom-in-law, or Ibu, never once criticize me for not able to cook for my husband, let alone cook for her family when she comes to visit (she cooked when she came over). We are more like friends, its very easy to talk to her, and she has this infectious giggle whenever she shares some amusing tales of her neighbours. And after 4 years of childless marriage, never once did she pressures me to 'go get pregnant, girl'. Not even a hint.

So when one day I decided to bring my mom-in-law back with me to Johor to visit my parents, to go 'jalan-jalan', I was taken aback with my friends' reaction to that. "What?".."Serious?" Like, it's the strangest thing in the world to do. What, people don't do that with their in-laws? What's wrong? Am I not normal..?

Hm...

..sing-a-long with me...

*Layan mp3*

Aku memang kaki dengar music. Macam2 genre aku layan, ikut mood. Kadang2 aku layan pop, ada masa aku layan rock kangkang. Bila aku marah, aku layan lagu yang gendang dia bisa bikin gegendang telinga aku melayang. Heh. Bila aku rasa mellow, aku layan balada. Ada juga masa bila tengah beringat tu, aku layan la nasyid. Hm.

Masa aku kecik, abah ada a few catridges (dia rupanya cam oversize cassette). Aku tak berapa ingat la lagu apa, tapi yang aku tau, catridge tu besar! Macam peanut butter sandwich saiznye, hahahaha.. Then dia pernah bagi aku dengar kaset P. Ramlee dia, pakai walkman Sony kebanggaan dia tu. (Kebanggaan sebab dia dapat hadiah walkman tu dari Kedutaan Jepun @Malaysia, panjang citernye, nanti la post lain aku cerita). Ada jugak lagu Dato' Shake. Aku minat Dato' Shake. "Dari kegagalan, satu percintaan ku alami.."

Bila aku sekolah rendah, masa tu tengah kemuncak rock melayu. Aku boleh hafal lagu Search, Wings, Satria, Ekamatra, Kris, Bumiputera Rockers.. to name a few la. Bayang la, budak darjah satu nyanyi lagu "Sejati". Itu la aku.

Lepas tu bila aku darjah 5-6, tiba tiba datang pulak zaman Rap. Zaman Fiona 4u2c. Zaman pakai CD kat leher. Aku tak berapa suka sangat zaman rap and hip hop. Pada aku lagu rap lagu membazir, buat gubahan lagu tapi last last bercakap. Tak ke penat?

Then come high school, and the Eddie Hamid's songs seems to be the hype! Ya Rabbi, tangkap leleh belaka! Data, EYE, SCOIN, ape ke mende nama tu, Spoon? That is also the year of boy bands - BSB, N-Sync, dan yang seboy-band dengannya... Nick Carter... cute nye... *sigh*

And of course, Siti Nurhaliza. Seb baik masa tu ada Siti Nurhaliza, aku boleh survive la, plus aku minat Siti masa tu. Hehe.. Punya la aku minat Siti, aku ada full collection cassette dia dari first album, sampai la ke yang terbaru sekali. Even tho sekarang aku dah tak berkenan dengan dia, surprisingly aku masih beli CD dia. Yang ori! Hell.

So bila dah keje sekarang ni, aku dah tak berapa follow la. Ape, Miley Cirus? Tu bukan umo aku. The Jonah Bro? Jauh la sekali. Hip hop aku memang tak suka langsung. Penat dengar orang bercakap.. So aku layan lagu2 yang disumbangkan oleh laki aku, dia rajin donlod. Makanye sekarang ni dia tgh gile donlod lagu Indonesia, sikit tahun lagi aku dah boleh ber'ngomongin' dengan dia. Heh. Pak.. sudah kamu donlod lagu nya? Best bangett.. dengarin sambil minum es bandrekk.. hahahahahah.. gile gile..

Ciao dulu. Aku nak pi makan malam.. adios...